I have always
felt different. I wondered very
early in life why some people were, well, why they were so mean
at times. It would really catch me off guard and confuse me. I did
not understand as a small child that we live in a polarized world, and that
even the people who love us the most could also bounce to the other side and
exhibit very negative behavior— and of course as time went on I soon found
out, so could I. The influence
was there, and it was hard not to fall into some of the same patterns.
first big breakthrough came after a year of very deep depression.
I would go to work, come home and pretty much just go to sleep.
I worked with a wonderful, loving woman who could see and feel my
inner struggle, and she proceeded to offer me positive affirmation on a
daily basis. She helped me to
remember my value, and she was relentless--so
much so that it eventually worked. I
really began to believe her, and I moved out of my depression.
I was incredibly grateful, and I promised that from that time on I
would “pay it forward”--when I saw someone who was suffering, I would do
my best to help them.
at that time, which was the early 1980’s, I became acquainted with the
work of Dr. Leo Buscaglia —a very popular love-teacher--and his energy was
absolutely contagious. He was
the one who taught me that I was in charge of my own happiness and creating
my own positive reality. He would say,
“If you don’t like the play you’re in, then get the hell off the stage
and write a new one!” What? It was up to
me? It had
never occurred to me before that if I was lonely, I
was the one who had to reach out—I had to stop waiting for others to do
it. Simple, right?
But this was a life-changing realization, and I became proactive in
creating a much better life for myself, filled with love and friendship and
interest in metaphysics came in my early thirties.
I heard clearly in my head at that time, “It’s
1990” and thought, “Okay,
so?" I did not understand
why this was important, but I would soon find out.
I was drawn to an astrology book, Sun
Signs by Linda Goodman, because
I was wanting to learn more about how to create positive relationships, and
I wanted to see how much astrology might play into them.
I was inspired to take a look at her recommend reading list, and I started reading a lot of those resources.
One of my favorites was her Star
Signs book, which really helped me to see the Divine Intelligence behind
all aspects of life—our bodies, the planets, numbers, words, you name it.
began to feel an electric-like energy when I would meditate.
I had listened to a tape by Abraham-Hicks http://abraham-hicks.com
called Great Awakening and Blending,
where I learned that body sensations, things like body twitches and moving
spontaneously during meditation, was communication
from Spirit. I learned that
meditation did not always bring knowledge in the form of words, but also in the form of energy.
I was then drawn to a book on Reiki, but before I got a chance to
read it, I burned my hand severely on a hot iron and was desperate to get
rid of the pain. Icepacks did
not do the trick. So I decided,
hey, let me try to simulate the cover of my Reiki book, which showed two
hands cupped around a representation of the Earth.
I decided to cup my “good” hand over the burned hand, and within
about three minutes, the pain was totally gone.
This got my attention!
So I decided to become certified in Reiki, and my life has never been
the same since. Reiki became not
only a healing modality to me, but a lifestyle.
I’m blessed to live my life in constant awareness of the energy
within and all around me, and my ability to interact with it and use it
create positive change.
biggest moment of remembrance happened when I was reading an article about
people who were called “Lightworkers.”
This was in the early 1990’s, and since then that term has become
very well-known, but at the time it was fairly new.
I remember thinking, “Wow, I wish I even knew someone who was a Lightworker—what
an awesome role they will play in the healing of the planet.”
And I read that article over and over again, and by the fourth or
fifth time something opened up in my heart and I began to cry.
I realized I was reading about myself. Even though I had not spent a
lot of time yet studying metaphysical topics, I knew it didn’t matter.
It was not my level of “expertise” or degree of experience that
made me a part of this group—it was something that was already inside me.
It was the heart-connection.
I knew, actually I remembered, that it was love
that mattered the most. The
veil of my humanness was parted, and a big piece of Heaven came through.
It became my goal to help others who desired it to bring these higher
dimensional energies back
into their lives as well.
are reading these words, then either you already know it, or might consider
the possibility that you are a part of this group
as well—many many people are here on the planet at this time to help
facilitate a great shift in consciousness that is prophesied to reach a high
point at the end of the year 2012. You
can learn more about this great shift here: 2012
~ The Great Equalizer
Certified Reiki Master/Teacher
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